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driving across this land of glacier hills
and wind scraped sky,

ghost grass snap shot.

looking for the first heart beat I knew,
real and grounded before my heart
beat for the first time.

my own heart ~ concrete walls
girded with steel ~

you know that isn't true,

more like sugar glass held
together with spider web ~

my ears listening for the first
song I ever heard.

so filled with hope and hopelessness.

in measures equal,

in measures unbalanced.

when I was a child
I stepped out into
the summer storm,

held out my hopeful hands,

cupped and holding

what I knew was the

history of the whole world.

then I threw my head back,

drank in the universe and danced.




raen1111
Listen . . .





While You Watch . . .










Then walk . . .



in your bare feet  . . .





we walk, and it is soft ~ soft.
lilting step and slipping promises.

the eagle flies over us,
magic feathered wings.

heavenly things can overcome
Mammon's muscled whispers.

we are the flood, the flame.

our bones are stones,
our blood . . . the next forest.

we weep, we are the
water over the road.

bridge and gap.

wash this away, hold me,
I am red heart remembered.

she has sewn together,
the lips of all the liars.

the world rises like a bee hum,
the murmuration sings on the horizon.

memories smudge across the
broken glass edge ~

my bloody toe, my corn field salvation.

a picture, in black and white, forgotten
in my worded mind, defined by my
posture, my synapse symphony.

my bare feet are strong and certain,
walking on the gravel lane ~
I know where the hive hangs,
I was born into its steady connection.

my wrists, once bound and bruised,
are free ~ I have found my fist,
I leave the filthy ropes behind.

I know a strong man, he waits
for me with big winged embrace.
at the end of the road, i can rest.

but i like the temerarious march,
thru the waxing moonlight morning,

that lies in between.







raen1111
Goodbye 2014

Gifts of the year
miracles
terrible and wonderous.
life always is this,
it is everything big and small.
walk with me through the new year.
take my hand,
we have so many journeys left to make.

And so it begins . . .



























































































raen1111


sit beside me as the fog lifts off the water
we have weathered this much
     
          ~ and even more than this~

you hold all the days inside your silver brain.
you wish for food and call it up from the
deep cells nestled inside of sleeping skin.

stealing seeds from the feeder and planting
them inside the earth, this is your forgetful garden.

it took me so many days to find my courage,
but I smile, because I see how easily you find your own.
your rainbow voice, dissects the grey distress.

you call forward the words and they spill, threading
promises into dark corners of thin days.  They
do not pool in your throat, they do not become
a moat beckoning the cruel, hungry serpent.

you will not need a knife to set
your heart free.

you are not violet practiced at fading ~
here let's learn the rules to a new game.

run with the sun settling into your skin,
it will change your colours.  waking up
the moon, stirring the tide.  open your
arms wide, crash into each new moment
with a story spinning inside your mouth,

with a joyous heart, build your days.

no one else is the carpenter.

when the days grow short, you are the
only storyteller left beside the hearth.


raen1111


here in the soft edge
of the blood moon,
i hold you inside
my alice mind.

i have coconut bruises
on my black leather knees.

i have seen the angel song,
felt it push out of my
stitched together throat.

it is not what you might think.

it is mighty and fearful.

it left me rendered, shambling ~
humbled and beautifully reduced.

it is sunlight flame, burning
all the demons away ~ melting
carefully fashioned masks.

it is a wake that leaves no
stone unturned.

it is not something wise men seek,

it is found only through the truly
turned turmoil of a tender soul.

when we walk with angels, our
eyes burn bright, skin glowing in
the dark ~ touch us and we burn,
turning lies inside out, truth
lays delicate and opened wide.

we are fearsome creatures, stone
in our bones and stars in our blood.




raen1111




















every morning, in air where moonlight
and sunlight come to mingle,

i fill her copper kettle with water from
the well, and bring a morning
prayer to the herbs and flowers.

the hawk and heron come as well.
every day they tell me winged stories,

they teach me how to lay beauty
into the bones of reality.

we remember her, we recite her name.

she would sit in the small house,
the world to her back, and stitch
together small promises ~

she would remember the red-winged
blackbird.
she would wish for the black rose,
red stigma.

I wear her moon face around my neck,
over the scar, over the place where the
end of the world was born and where a
new world was imagined.

in the spring, into a new earth,
I planted her garden ~

hibiscus, lavender, rosemary, sage, forsythia,
three rose bushes for our roaming Alice.
lilacs, basil, blueberries, crape myrtle.

in firefly light she gave the garden back to me.

I share it with my silver daughter,
two wild cats,
a gentle man.

but her voice emanates from
the flowers and the bee hum.
her eyes sparkle in dragonfly wing,
her spirit scents the air on tip of
butterfly flight.















every night, as the moon takes shape in a flurry
of bat wing and cicada song,

I take his hand, and we walk into the hills,
I look over the land down to where the
river rolls and say,

"I love this copper-kettle life."

He sends me a warm look, squeezes my
hand and smiles ~ "you say that every night"

and every night, it is true ~

raen1111


once upon a time,
paradise surrounded a quiet sound.
- i -
alone in a lavender field.

no one could hear my beating heart.

save
     the sparrow that came to
eat seed from my open hand.

save
     the migrating whales,
singing to me below
sunset cliff.

i had known a long winter,
pushed down, held under water
for so long, i could not remember
the taste of air, the sting of oxygen
burning red in my blood.

but

the sea will not drown me.

she is my mother, my sister,
she will only send me home
with a strong story etched into my bones.

the ones
with iron will and cruel hands
hold a miscalculated promise.

their fortune
crumbles under purple skies,
their lies exposed in
lightening flash.

i am mermaid, remembering
the storm.

i am the sparrow whisper on
top of the whale song.