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One dressed her in black, the other in white,

The one before was so blind he didn’t bring her a raiment at all.

When she was alone, she dressed herself in red

And swirled until the moon gave herself to the sun.

It made no matter that her wings ripped from her bones

As she hurtled through time and space,

For even among the silicon chips and Freudian slips

They started to re-grow, always busy with the lavender lift.

The hawk screech and robin trees wouldn’t leave her alone,

Eagle talons close-in ~ look ~ the wolf she feeds is full of light,

The sparrow brings her news and she listens on the edge of delight.

I can make it spin with the flick of wrist, undulation of hip –

Bird song, flutter flying heart –

“Lean in honey . . .  haven’t you heard?”

It is the year of the Amazon, the vines of forgetting, the roots of

Remembering,  “there is much history between you and me,

History in the future, history in the past.”

I have been busy dreaming of rainbows, leather roads, leading

To the mountain home.  Mauna Kea whispering in the breeze.

The trees billow with feathers, robins lifting the solstice light.

We are sleeping until the equinox but already the boys sound

Their bells, we are deep in the medicine and it is hard to hear them.

His hat is deep and full of stories, satin spinning and he sends me ~

Black lace re-birthing, leap with me, we are in need of the bleeding heart

Memory, she wears her scarlet robe and will sigh no longer.

The apocalypse ate up many things -  but within the brick rubble -

      Light

In between my broken bones and torn skin –

     Light

Penetrating the pulled apart promises and death wish waste –

    Light

He may have the flint stone, but I am the one who knows about fire.

I do not need a happily-ever-after ending, I am painting my own ending,
 
I do not have time to worry, we meander and feel no fear,


The stream knows where it is leading.
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Well, what can I say?  "hold onto nothing as fast you can . . . still . . . .pretty good year"

Yeah, that's about right.  Thought I should re-cap the year a bit early just in case the 21st really is the end of the world . . .



It was an eventful year ~ a big thank you to those who have loved and supported me through it all.

And if it was my last year?  Well, it actually was a pretty good year.  It is joy to be alive.

Below are the songs that have gotten me through this year, that I have belted out while doing dishes in the kitchen, that I have cried to, laughed with, danced to ~ I found my voice this year, and it is still a little rusty, but it is nice to have it back in my throat where it belongs ~

Just click on the song title, and it will take you to YouTube ~ sorry in advance for the commercial interruptions, the mix CD's will be commercial free ~


Happy holidays and much love to you all.  Enjoy the music, mix CD's with original cover art will be making the rounds soon ~ and I am making some Butterfly Medicine Potions to accompany them : )


1.  Pretty Good Year - Tori Amos
~ Well, I already stated it, but I will say it again ~~ it was a pretty good year ~


2.   Fade Into You - Mazzy Star
"I want to hold the hand inside you"


3.  In the Round - The Cardigans
~ I do love to do my dance in the round~


4.  Coffee and Cigarettes - Michelle Featherstone
~hmmmm . . . .self-explanatory~


5.  Shake it Out - Florence and the Machine
"I am done with my graceless heart. So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart"


6.  Our Town - Kate Rusby
"can't you see the suns goin down on our town?"


7.  Blue Jeans - Lana Del Ray
~ for when I like to try on my bad girl ; ) ~


8.  Musicbox - Regina Specter
~ because I think it is fun to fill the sink to the top with bubbles of soap ~


9.  Strange Little Girl - Tori Amos
~  makes me think of some half-wild, toe-headed girl, raised poor in the Ozark mountains who thought she was Wonder Woman ~ grew up to find out that she wasn't ~


10.   Three Women - Domestic Science Club
~ for the sweet kitchen life I have been living, for the hands that have prepared food with me and for me ~ for those who have nourished me, supported me and help me call myself back to myself ~


11.  I Don't Know - Lisa Hannigan
~ I really don't know ~ but it's no biggie ~


12.  Samson - Regina Specter
"Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go"


13.  Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Ray
"Got my red dress on tonight
Dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight"

~I do know a little bit about summertime sadness ~


14.  Passenger - Lisa Hannigan
She said "Burn.. oh why"And I said "Burn.. oh why" 

~ I have spent my life so afraid of the burn, I haven't been able to open my eyes to the truth right in front of my eyes ~ after this year, I have found my courage and am learning how to step into the fire ~ it hurts, but not as much as trying to hide what hurts ~ at least it can burn, and then it is ash, and we all know what arises from the ash ~ mere mere would be proud : )


15.  A Good Day - Priscilla Ahn
"I can tell it's gonna be a good day!"


16.  Afterglow - Phaeleh
"Taking control of the elements,
Making them mine, making them mine."


17.  Away - Kathleen Edwards
"I've been away"
But I have come back home ` prodigal ~ that's okay ~


18.  Don't Let Them See You Cry - Manchester Orchestra
~ for all of those who held space for me while I cried ~ it did feel like a dam broke ~ thanks for all the shoulders that surrendered to my need ~


19.  Edge of the Moon - Tori Amos
"Did you teach me to fly past your marmalade sky?"


20.  Born - Over the Rhine
~ because I am still open to learning how to love without fear and I am happy to laugh through my tears ~ living is a precious gift and I am thankful for all the gifts this year has brought me ~ here is to 2012 (still . . . pretty good year : )



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"Storm Warning" by Welsh Dragon
I am the gentle thunder roll

Skin tingle, goose bump parade
I am the electric pulse, heart-beat
Lightening, tendering the glow behind
Your eyes ~ when you look at me,
You will remember,
You will no longer be afraid. 

Swim with me, in the fish soup sea
We are star shimmer, seven sisters
In the mortal masquerade.
We are the moon
        In the wax
               In the wane
Spiral life rooted in the bird
Nest reverie, sweet ecstasy,
Ride the weaver’s wave.


I have cleaned out my closet,
It is the skeleton bone shake –
I am giving up the ghost.
Hand wave, clearing space
I can pull the Universe
Out of my wooden bowl heart.


It is the spring bouquet
On the day, I remembered my name.
It is the rose quartz heart
Softly dangling from green silk promises.
It is lavender tea and cinnamon rolls,
Laughter ringing off the walls,
Dancing with honesty, love, passion,
Magic, loyalty, the intelligent sigh.

 And when the air grows quiet around my skin
And the world needs a stir
~ From under my right wing,
     The lightning strike
~ From under my left wing,
      The thunder roll.
“You can find no shelter from the storm,
Because you are the storm.”
Embrace it, celebrate this creative power.

It is a life worth living,
Miracles tangled in my hair.
Arms spread wide, reaching up
Embracing the sky.
My topiary mind tended with careful
Hands, the bull forgiven
With the silver, crescent edge.
Gratitude dance, simple, heart-felt sway.
It is easy, when you surrender to grace.
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I am putting on my snakeskin-tune boots, wings dripping wet with the ripple refrain
My heart is muscle ache sore after the bee sting symphony
The previous wane almost did me in, boiling skin and widow’s shriek
I was wide-eyed mesmerized by poet promises and ocean eyes but in the end
It was only a sea of broken-glass lies, he was locked in glass coffin on the mercurial bed
And quick, quick bottom bound ~  deep concealment, moldering secrets, seeping
Poison into the today ~ dark dropping, shadow skittering charade ~

Hush, there are black things creeping
Through demon dreams, stealing away your lightening strength and piping
Smoke into the crocodile bed, laying shattered for eleven days among
The bleeding hearts, clinging to the Magdalene’s feet, candle flicker casting
The promise of glow across my darkening features, my broken fate ~
I had thought the trinity complete, hawk shriek promises and sparrow whispers
I had seen the top of the hill, soft embrace and the sunset days spilling over
The ancient page ~ illusions drawn on soft skin, washed away in mother’s fountain

“Last time you saw him he drowned you in the still lake, crosses still
Burn with your secret name”

he was shredded tone and in need of eagle wings
In the end, the only protection she needed, was from the one who claimed
To be her protector, rotting brain with twisting thoughts feeding deeply from the harpy’s
Song, he left the baby in the basket ~ blizzard and lost in the snow blind ~ all was
sacrificed, not even a scrap could be saved, skin stripped from bone
“I destroy everything I touch”
Then he packed his bags, turned and walked away, already tendrils slipping into hearts
Less shattered by his scar scratched claws, reminiscent and sweeter to the taste ~

Blaringly quiet, stunned eyes surveying the surprise of the hard-won road ~

I draw around my shoulders the moon crust robes, take my vows, seal and reclaim
My soul, chakras in the pinwheel spin ~ “you are always you” ~ prodigal, I have been too busy with the quick sand karma and the tar pit trauma ~ but that is an older story and the skipping record will be broken between the sheets of the virgin bed ~
I will walk barefoot in the snow ~ I will never again climb into the snowdrift forgetting ~

climbing into the phoenix pyre, screaming with agony, embracing the pain, holding it in gentle cupped hands, I am learning to let it wash me away ~

birth then death then rebirth ~ spiral life and when it ends

I am tree woman with stars in my hair ~ my roots creating life within the earth and my limbs and leaves making love to the sky ~

I will forgive the father ~

I will remember my name ~

I thought it was all about the three and the seven,
But in the end it was all about the eleven, this salvia divination.


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I had meant to post this a bit earlier in November but the month has taken on a life of its own.  Today, I sit in a slice of warm sun as a cold wind pushes up against the house, making me snuggle deeper into my chair.  Nibbling on some left over pumpkin pie and sipping on a cup of coffee, seems a perfect time to pull together the menu and share it with you ~ 

It is that time of year when you bring the people you love together and share your heart with them by preparing and sharing food.  This menu does just that and is so nurturing, easy and delectable you may find yourself integrating some of the dishes into your day-to-day meal planning.  When you send out invitations you may want to ask people to break out their berets, everyone came to our party in the European costume of their choice which made the whole evening just that much more whimsical and fun(ny)!  The Ratatouille recipe serves between 4-6, so you may need to double it/triple it depending on your number of guests.  Everything else is suited for around 10 dinner guests so adjust recipes as needed for your party.

I am all about easy, nothing on the menu is hard to make.  Just because it is French doesn't mean you have to be a gourmet chef to make it taste good.

Happy Holidays and Bon appétit ~


Paris on the Plains


~Menu~

Ratatouille

Grand Aioli

French Salad with Herbs and Flowers

Cheese Plate w/ Tri-Colored Grape Bunches

Baked Brie

Crepes with Nutella


 ~ Ratatouille ~

 (2 hours to make)

1 large eggplant
salt and black pepper
2 tbsp olive oil
2 tbsp truffle oil (substitute with more olive oil if you don't have truffle oil)
4 shallot cloves, diced
1 small onion, sliced
2 large garlic cloves, crushed
4 zucchini, sliced
1 28 oz can of whole, stewed tomatoes
1 large red pepper, cored, seeded and sliced
1/4 tsp sugar
2 tbsp basil paste (I use "Gourmet Garden, Basil herb blend" found in the herb section of the produce aisle)
1/4 tsp crushed or ground coriander seeds
4 tbsp fresh basil leaves to garnish
1/2 cup sliced almonds (lightly sauteed in butter)

Step 1.  Cut the eggplant into 1/2 inch slices.  Place in a colander, sprinkle generously with salt, and leave to stand for about 30 minutes.  Rinse the eggplant slices and pat dry with paper towels.

Step 2.  Heat the olive oil in a large skillet, add the shallots, onion and garlic, and cook gently, stirring occasionally, for 3-5 minutes, until softened.

Step 3.  Add the eggplant slices, cover, and simmer gently for 20 minutes.

Step 4.  Add the zucchini, tomatoes (drain the water and break them apart with a spoon), red pepper, sugar, and salt and pepper to taste and cook gently, covered, for 45-60 minutes, until the vegetables are soft but retain their shape.  Do not stir vigorously or you may break them up.

Step 5.  Ten minutes before the end of cooking time, add the 2 tbsp basil paste and the 1/4 tsp crushed/ground coriander seeds.  Taste for seasoning.

Step 6.  Garnish with  as much fresh basil as you please and top with the toasted almond slices.

~ Modified recipe, original recipe found in Classic Home Cooking with Mary Berry and Marlena Spieler



 ~ Grand Aioli ~



Okay, for the Aioli, I am going to send you the the NPR website where I first heard of the recipe.  This garlic mayonnaise has become one of my all time favorite comfort foods.  For our party, I served it with fresh french bread, hard boiled eggs, 2 rotisserie chickens from the store, and a layout of fresh cut veggies (carrots, peppers, zucchini, tomatoes).  I think you are going to absolutely love it ~





~ French Salad with Herbs and Flowers ~

 I told you I love easy ~ in the salad section at Whole Foods I found a pre-prepared salad from Organic Girl called "vive la France" ~ so, I bought one tub of that and a tub of the "fresh herbs and greens" from the same company and then teeny, tiny organic tomatoes and a package of Edible Flowers found in the fresh herb section.  When I got home, I poured everything into a huge wooden bowl, gave it a toss or two, sprinkled with toasted almonds and VOILA ~ a fabulous salad, everyone loved.  We served it with A L'Olivier Truffle Balsamic Vinegrette.  



Helpful Hint:  Don't leave out the flowers, you will never see your friends so happy as when they are eating fresh flowers, it's not really French but it is something you don't want to miss!   



~ A Handy Guide to Creating the Perfect Cheese Plate ~
 


No need to re-invent the wheel ~ follow this link to a blog with great directions:

 
I do like to add a platter of tri-colored grape bunches along side the cheeses.




~ Baked Brie ~

 
Again, you can't get any easier!

2 rounds of brie
St. Dalfour Four Fruits Spread
Toasted Almond Slices (about 1/3 cup for each round)
1.  Pre-heat oven to 350
2.  Gently toast almonds in a skillet with a bit of butter
3.  Place your brie rounds in a baking dish or pan
4.  Generously spread the tops of your brie with the fruit spread
5.  Sprinkle with almond slices
6.  Bake for 20ish minutes
7.  Most yummy thing you will EVER taste!!!!!






  For Dessert, Crepes w/ Nutella and a box of Gourmet Chocolates 


I was lucky enough to have a friend willing to prepare these fresh for the guests as they requested ~ here is an easy, yummy recipe from



We also had a box of neuhuas chocolates to pass around ~

and of course we had bottles and bottles of Bordeaux : )



Hope you find this little party easy and fun to share with your friends ~








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shush, hush, silent night ~ tea sip, firelight ~
trees putting on their winter bones ~ barefeet
padding down iced cobble stones ~ slipping off
my wings as i weave snakes into my hair,
knitting roses into paper skin ~ all these scars, my
tattooed life ~ glowing grin {shrug} it's alright ~ as long
as the sage blooms red and wild, i can breathe
again, think, feel, stay awhile ~ tumble fall
through cicada fog, long ago dreams, fire fly
spring ~ mason jars and releasing things ~
my friend told me i was a good thought and that
is enough warmth to sustain me through
winter ~ the moon crust crushing against earth ~
waxing, waning, cold star dance ~ surprised doe,
trembling stance ~ wooden bowl release at
mother's feet ~ truth is my new best friend, freed
me from the siren's net ~ she is insistent, and
will not be sent away, she will strangle you if you
do not let her rise, so relax, raise your mouth towards
the heavens and unfurl ~ secrets held, twist into
shades with demon names ~ even to whisper them
on the wind unwinds the soul, damage done,
but not beyond repair ~ the earth smells rich and sweet,
it smells like home ~ wrapping wounds and mending
bones ~ hawk trinity dancing with my jungle heart ~
shush, hush ~ silenced night ~ winged tip then quiet flight ~
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There were spiders and honeybees in my yellow hair tangle
I cut off my own head, desperate search for disappeared voice
It had been too long in the dark carnival, couldn’t find
My way off the barbed-wire, roller coaster ~ when I
Jumped it was no wonderland fall, just butterfly wings
To help break the fall ~ I was bare-boned tired of the
Heavy fisted fights, Iscariot hearts and Pinocchio lies
The bare foot squabbles over the jagged shards of my
Broken word song, joy was drowned in the shadow cage
The screeching jezebel vultures didn’t have long to wait
The summer bared down, desert waves and dying things
I picked up the sword and cut open the sky - a million
Tears began to fall, small courage, found truth and
Everything false just fell away


And in a time when nature is usually preparing for sleep,
She remembered who she was and began to wake,
Red sumac release against new grass, inspired by rain,
Wick rising, green and true, gentle hum, beds of brown,
Stirred and re-birthed, strawberry blossoms in October ~
Starling mummerations stitching hope into the sky ~
Eagles come uncovering the river road, long lost but
Now, on my way home, snakeskin tune with a new face
sparrows with their sunflower seed dance, I dance too
with new abandon, finding my voice among the fallen leaves
thankful for the butterfly medicine and the caterpillar lesson
“off with her head” and it was the best gift I was ever given ~